First and foremost, I want to say that you’re not insane. You’re not now; you never were. You were simply following the guidance of your heart, and that kind of knowledge sometimes seems strange in the light of analytical thought.
I’m not saying that you should ignore your rationality, or count it out. But I am affirming my belief – which is strong now as ever – that there are things which defy the appearance of sense and which are nonetheless true. And when you commit yourself to following these things, you sometimes end up walking by a very unusual way.
People might call out to you: “Hey! You, over there! You’ve lost the road; the path is over here!” Take that advice for what it’s worth. It’s certainly well meant, and perhaps you’d like to travel the beaten path for a while. Maybe there’s something you need to do, or discover, there. That’s O.K. But if you’re hesitating because you think there’s value in keeping on, through the brambles, in and out of the dark wood, wherever your heart might lead – well, just know that I understand.
For what is life – life really and truly lived – if you can’t listen to the promptings of your innermost being and respond – uncertainly, perhaps, but also simply, delicately, wildly, unabashedly – with love?